King-Sized Changes

I awoke this morning
in the middle of the bed.
It’s happened a couple of times now.
A little lost
A momentary panic
with legs tangled in sheets.

They tell you
when you lose a spouse
a significant other
avoid big changes
for at least a year.

That wasn’t hard.
I don’t remember much
about that first year
except that grocery shopping
for one
made me cry.
I’d stand in the aisle
in my unchanged clothes
remembering your favorite foods
and weep.

It took four years
to move to the center
of the king-sized bed
from the far left side that was mine.
I clung to the edge
So your ghost
would have plenty of room
to thrash about
without waking me.

But all that has changed.

About Sharon

Like anyone who lives long enough, I have experienced great loss and survived. I am convinced that my survival depends on my own participation in creating the reality I am living in, and I am determined to be a thoughtful and active participant/creator. These writings are my way of documenting that creation. As the song goes, "I will survive!" I chose the title Staying Vertical because I find that surviving isn't just staying on my feet physically. Keeping my thoughts and emotions on the vertical plane keeps me alive and moving forward. Thanks for joining me!
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